Lost in your beauty..

And the water of Scotland,

starts falling in,

the soothing Aroma of Spirit,

falls through my vein,

all these days I have been,

enjoying the sweet pain,

hiding you deep within,

my memories now heavily rain,

Somewhere far along this road,

I lost my heart to your soul..

Every night as I am alone,

I stare all at the phone,

I just wanted to talk some more,

wish you were with me at home,

I break down and fall on my knee,

wish you breathe the air for me..

As the Sun bright above Shine,

I walk alone a few mile,

I rest, get my breathe for a while,

I breaks me when I think this time,

If we walked together, enjoyed this ride,

faced all seasons, all our life..

My heart is all filled,

with your pictures stacked,

on the wall, and with every beat,

It realizes you are in it..

I shall stay the same,

I shall happily wait,

until someday that it turns to late,

I am lost all in love,

I find it easy to see all reality,

as long as you stay with me,

and the day if you leave,

I will be lost in your beauty..

Stairway of Memory..

You often come to me,

Walk down the stairway of memory,

You seem to make me realize,

The world is all empty within,

Some tears of joy flow out,

As I feel you all around..

I would have made heaven at home,

Wish you didn't leave me all alone,

It’s the same every now and then,

I miss you every moment,

As some tears flow free,

I wish you did rub them for me..

I build my world of peace,

Feel like you stand beside me,

Even if I don't see you by my eyes,

Your voice reverberate often in my ears,

The abyss in my heart shall always remain,

I shall live with this pain..

I miss you often,

Sometimes every now and then,

But someday soon I will meet you,

In a beautiful dream,

I wait for the day when,

I will sleep on your lap in heaven..

These lines are penned down just in memory of my elder brother who left me too early. I miss him every day, every moment. I just feel his presence will make every the Lord smile, he was just so lovely.

Death..

I sleep under a big tree,

upon thee strong knee,

As my eyes fall low,

I have a dream not so good..

I wake up just to see,

a different world of less space,

where you are no longer with me,

And this world has no beauty,

Haunted with fear, heartbroken with pain,

I don't wake up again..

And this death proved a little lucky,

life seemed a burden, heart too heavy..

Wish this dream turn so true,

I heaven I shout aloud,

Even after death, I love you..

Death - II

The Ugly Me..

Loosen my feet, fall on my knee,

I hold hand, ask thee,

All I wish to see,

In your beautiful eyes, the ugly me..

Be the reason I breathe,

my last desire I wish to live,

make a place for me to forever live,

In your beautiful heart, the ugly me..

Lend me that hand, as I said,

in the dark I get afraid,

when I fall asleep, hold me,

In your beautiful hands, the ugly me..

Let your lips speak about,

all beautiful things we would,

get closer and forever be,

In your beautiful lips, the ugly me..

Let your ears hear those words,

that I have been saying since years,

the ear drums ring sound of me,

In your beautiful ears, the ugly me..

In a place where I run faster,

than In place I could do better,

tirelessly where I run with pride,

In your beautiful mind, the ugly me..

The ugly me wishes it be,

your heart always lives with me,

and forever in history when anyone shall see,

Inside the beautiful thee, its the ugly me..

I want my funeral to be a drunkards gathering..

every eye filled with moisture, every heart with fear,

where every beautiful eye shed's a tear,

where every one gives a final good-bye with a sad face,

I want it different, a different demise..

Dancing people, singing songs of merry,

let me off the shore with glory,

sing aloud a cheerful lover's story,

send me home, to my Deity..

Swimming in the seas of rum,

Aristocratically sipping pegs of scotch, some,

they speak about my struggle and strive,

they drink and tell the truth of my life..

Friends will talk about that street fight,

and will speak about the women we fantasized,

and would recall incidents of our mischief

and will also say a kings life I did live..

Kiss my grave, or kick my chest,

just be true when I am on my death bed,

just smile, be happy when I lie dead there,

your smiling faces will make my journey better..

I shall meet my ancestors and few old friends,

a small get-together up there in heaven,

you people shall join me soon, giving me a feeling warm,

we will celebrate that day, drink a better rum..

I want my funeral to be a drunkards gathering,

where people shall just dance, celebrate and sing,

where people would be true, won't be fake,

they would wish me luck for a better life after death..

Promise me before you leave..

all you have thought is to walk back,

step forward in the reverse,

live yourself to my adverse,

made me hate myself, call myself a curse..

unhold my hands, loose my grip,

made me walk like a creep,

I lost all peace, all sleep,

somewhere I lost myself, do you believe..

you tore those letters, broke all gifts,

destroyed your painting that I made,

atleast the last hug you can give,

but, not even a good bye before you leave..

A last promise you can give is what I believe,

promise me before you leave,

you shall be with someone who is true,

promise me you won't let anyone hurt you..