The Ugly Me..

Loosen my feet, fall on my knee,

I hold hand, ask thee,

All I wish to see,

In your beautiful eyes, the ugly me..

Be the reason I breathe,

my last desire I wish to live,

make a place for me to forever live,

In your beautiful heart, the ugly me..

Lend me that hand, as I said,

in the dark I get afraid,

when I fall asleep, hold me,

In your beautiful hands, the ugly me..

Let your lips speak about,

all beautiful things we would,

get closer and forever be,

In your beautiful lips, the ugly me..

Let your ears hear those words,

that I have been saying since years,

the ear drums ring sound of me,

In your beautiful ears, the ugly me..

In a place where I run faster,

than In place I could do better,

tirelessly where I run with pride,

In your beautiful mind, the ugly me..

The ugly me wishes it be,

your heart always lives with me,

and forever in history when anyone shall see,

Inside the beautiful thee, its the ugly me..

I want my funeral to be a drunkards gathering..

every eye filled with moisture, every heart with fear,

where every beautiful eye shed's a tear,

where every one gives a final good-bye with a sad face,

I want it different, a different demise..

Dancing people, singing songs of merry,

let me off the shore with glory,

sing aloud a cheerful lover's story,

send me home, to my Deity..

Swimming in the seas of rum,

Aristocratically sipping pegs of scotch, some,

they speak about my struggle and strive,

they drink and tell the truth of my life..

Friends will talk about that street fight,

and will speak about the women we fantasized,

and would recall incidents of our mischief

and will also say a kings life I did live..

Kiss my grave, or kick my chest,

just be true when I am on my death bed,

just smile, be happy when I lie dead there,

your smiling faces will make my journey better..

I shall meet my ancestors and few old friends,

a small get-together up there in heaven,

you people shall join me soon, giving me a feeling warm,

we will celebrate that day, drink a better rum..

I want my funeral to be a drunkards gathering,

where people shall just dance, celebrate and sing,

where people would be true, won't be fake,

they would wish me luck for a better life after death..

Promise me before you leave..

all you have thought is to walk back,

step forward in the reverse,

live yourself to my adverse,

made me hate myself, call myself a curse..

unhold my hands, loose my grip,

made me walk like a creep,

I lost all peace, all sleep,

somewhere I lost myself, do you believe..

you tore those letters, broke all gifts,

destroyed your painting that I made,

atleast the last hug you can give,

but, not even a good bye before you leave..

A last promise you can give is what I believe,

promise me before you leave,

you shall be with someone who is true,

promise me you won't let anyone hurt you..

A promise from my Coffin..

All faces seem so familiar,

every friend is today depressed,

every eye is shedding a tear,

everyone's sad, whosoever present here..

A crowd full of sad faces,

yet I feel some absence,

everything today would have been perfect,

in the crowd if you were present..

Few strong hands pick me high,

to make me reach a world in the sky,

A good-bye I wish I could have said,

but I sleep sound in my bed of death..

I make a promise from my coffin,

I will wake up and walk till the end,

All I wait is for one voice,

open your lips and call my name..

Lets build our world..

let us go somewhere far,

walk a mile or two,

pass some mountains and ridges,

cross some castles and houses..

lets go for a place so new,

traveled by none or atmost a few,

a place filled with jungle and river,

a place so saturated with nature..

lets build an island of you & me,

that would seem so endless, with no boundary,

we walk every evening, with no worry,

tired, we rest under a tree..

we live every season, summer & winter,

enjoy the evenings of rainy weather,

and for the sunrises, we wake up together,

you for me, me for you, we live for each other..

Soldier of love..

And I stepped forward, gathering all courage

preparing all for it, trying to be brave

got myself ready, like a soldier for his fight

marching ahead, for the final destination of my life..

With my heart in my hand, I walk along

loosening it from my fist, place it at your feet

pumps blood for me, but for you it does beat

and you crush it, ignoring the tears of blood it did bleed..

Am a soldier that lost his fight

but I didn't surrender, till my last breathe I tried

A last wish, some simple words, get it carve

in letter's bold, on my tombstone, SOLDIER OF LOVE..